fly in the sky

 I dream every day after I fallen sleep. like i am living two difference world. at my dream there is no stress, no troubles, sometimes i wish i staying at my dream always, no need to wake up.

I don't know when God will stop the test for me. I am so weak to stand on that, sometimes i have doubt, why? don't you think that is too much for a new to suffer?

I don't know there is happy or reward in the end of life or not. but i feel that i almost lose my faith, my belif, living in this Islamic country, i don't feel there is love arounding me. i face so much troubles, I miss my country, my country, my culture, i want to go back, this feeling become more strong now.

what should i do? I pray to God help me easier, but it seems God can not hear me.